Tuesday, May 25, 2010

In the begining... Part One

All my life I spent my life waiting to find a husband, get married ,have children, and live happily ever after. Dreaming of that day. Wondering what he would look like. Would he be the man of my dreams? Would he come and sweep me of my feet? When would he come? I had a list filled with lots of exceptions. Well I didn't wait patiently. I thought I could just go on and date anyone and get rid of that one if he didn't meet what I wanted, or didn't meet my expectations. I would say " God I know I should wait and seek you during this time but this is so much easier and a faster way. I think I know better Lord. Sorry!" Well years of just being boy crazy and trying to find myself in boys. Left me searching for who I truly was and left me with ALOT of scars.
Still very young and immature God allowed my path to cross with a very handsome tall and all around great guy named James Aaron Young. He was awesome. He was crazy about me and I was crazy about him. We fell in love quickly and I started to think this was him the one I have been waiting for . He met all the exceptions and I could check all the boxes on my list. Our relationship moved at a fast pace. We started dating in February , got engaged in June and married in November all in the same year. There was no time to breathe!! It was an amazing time for us. We had to be long distance for awhile and that was tough but it only made our love grow . We were very young and really not knowing what we were in for but oh we LOVED each other. To this day I wish I could take 20 year old Jill and shake her and say take this serious. It is not like playing house, but my love for him was so strong it would stand through anything right?. We were married November 11 1995. It was a day I will always remember. I remember his eyes and how my heart beat so hard. How awesome it felt to be in his gaze and have him love me. He made me tingle from my head to my feet. When I saw him I knew this is who I have been waiting for. He was everything to me. We said our vows and pledged our love to each other before God and all our love ones. We walked off the stage to go live happily ever after.
Being married was a lot different then we had once thought. I thought every day would be sunshine, lots of love, and just pure passion. Kinda makes you laugh hearing it. Well it turned into a roller coaster ride from day one. We surrendered to full time ministry six months into our marriage. Aaron started bible college and we took on the jr. high ministry at our church. We threw ourselves into ministry. Aaron stayed really busy with school, work , and then handling a ministry. It was the start of the up hill part of a roller coaster. Things were good. We loved our life and doing great with it. Three years into our marriage we added a another thing to balance. This one was a awesome addition. Daniel James Young was born on September 4 1998. It was a wonderful addition. I was not only a wife I was now a mother. It made my heart full. Aaron worked and was in school full time and I was able to be a stay at home. Bliss full days!! I loved it all. God seem to be smiling down on the Young's.
Aaron was in his senior year of college and we were still plugging along. I was wife mother and also loving on a bunch of jr high kids. It was again like God was shinning down on us. Another addition was coming to the Young home. Dawson Aaron Young was born October 31 2000. He was a great addition and again I was mommy. It was great. During Aaron's senior year Aaron lost his job at MCI. We were so distraught. We didn't know what we were going to do. God provided and allowed Aaron to get the full time youth pastor job at the church we had been doing the jr high at. It was perfect. We were going to stay in Springfield and then get to work with the kids we had been working with. It was perfect. Yet again God seemed to be smiling down on us.
Working at a church seemed quiet different from the outside working force. Aaron was always busy and always having to do something for the church. He was always tired and mentally drained every night he came home. I was trying to be a good wife and mother and also be a youth pastor wife. We were both fraying on the ends. I was so tired........

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